The lesson then must be that none of us should under-appreciate just how we affect and touch each others lives. You just can't know, while sitting at home in front of your computer, how your words can influence others.
I feel some guilt too, as I can never get away from the fact, that I'm responsible for much that has gone wrong. I was talking to my mother this morning about the debt I'd fallen into, and she said that she didn't understand how I could have got into such difficulties. I wasn't able to tell her that the reason these debts had piled up, was that I'd honestly believed that I'd not have to pay the money back. My intention was always to kill myself and thus avoid any financial consequences.
However, all of that is behind me now. I can live again.
Yesterday, I spent much of the day drawing, and this is what I produced. Two versions of the same image. Pencil, pen and then photoshop for the colour and inverse effects.