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C'mon, Get Happy
Yellow head
Thinking is harmful, or at least it's harmful to me (at the moment). I'm full of bleak thoughts. I'm due back at work on Sunday night, and I dread the idea. I associate the residential home for the elderly I'm working in, with darkness, piss, excrement and death. Not exactly positive elements for someone in a depressed state of mind. The nights have drawn in, so that it's dark when I set off for work and only just light when I leave it. I, of course, have to sleep though much of the daylight hours, which means that I hardly see the sun.

Also a problem is that I have nothing in common with the other people who work there. They're mostly young Asian girls, who are so different from me, that to them I might as well be from another planet. There's no common ground at all. Some are friendly, but a few simply ignore me, as if I didn't exist. The other morning, as I was leaving, I said good-bye to the oncoming dayshift, only to get a stoney silence in response. I got no eye-contact from these girls, instead they stared into space, like the dead-eyed fish you see lying on the ice on a supermarket counter.

Here's the link to my art blog: http://darryl-cunningham.blogspot.com/

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I think you should persist with the same cheery greetings to the incoming shift and see if you can wear them down over time. They may have been a bit grumpy as they arrived (what with the "darkness, piss, excrement and death" and all) and jealous of you leaving, but even if you continue to get no response you might well be contributing a tiny droplet of cheer into their dreary working days.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so isolated. We are thinking of you.

hi darryl - i dunno if this "helps" - but we've got the painting of modok you did for me up in our front room - & it really cheers me up when i look at it

1. it is an amazing thing to be able to create things that gives other ppl pleasure
2. goob art = uplifting & mood changing

ps. ta for the facebook invite - but i can only just about cope with LJ...!

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