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I'm very much enjoying my new placement at Alcohol Services. Very laid back there. I'm working with a nurse I knew when she was a student. We get on very well. I'm without a mentor yet, as the nurse in question is off sick, recovering after an operation.

I showed my portfolio of artwork around when I was there the other day. The temp receptionist asked me the inevitable question about how long it took me to do my drawings? At least she didn't ask where I got my ideas from? I hate these questions, because just I don't know what the answers are. She did tell me though that I was wasted being a nurse, and that it wasn't often she came across someone with such talent. This paradoxically filled me with despair, as I'm acutely aware of my failure as an artist.

It interested me that one of the other nurses in the office, having heard this praise, found excuses not to look at my portfolio when it was handed to her.

Mecca bingo reflected in the surface of the canal, taken on the way to work the other morning.
Mecca Refected

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You can certainly be a nurse and an artist at the same time - although I know what you mean. Even when I've liked my job, I've not felt like it was what I should be doing at ALL. I rarely tell people I write, because then they ask what sorts of things I write and for some reason I hate to talk about it. I think I feel like it will lead to that whole "so, you're NOT published - you must not be much of a writer then!" thing.

The trouble is that I don't much want to be a nurse anymore. I dread returning to the wards.

failure as an artist??!

hmm - that's getting into what quantifies 'sucess'

we never got to edit 'Deadline' toogether - but that's circumstance...

you ain't no failure - I don't consider myself a failure - we is explorers.

I would like a little more balance in my life between art and nursing. For too many years art has had to take a backseat to the intense pressures of the job. It's really not who I am.

But so many of us feel like that, TallGuy. Sadly it's proof of a healthy normality. I don't see why you have to read "failure as an artist" into your current situation ... there aren't any failures, really: only choices.

This page from a rather entertaining sketchbook diary thing...

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