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Start of the Final Year
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tallguywrites
I've really enjoyed my time off from college and placements, but now that time is over, and it's back to the student nurse grind. I'm officially a third year as of today. Reality bites. In six months I'm going to have to start applying for staff nurse jobs. A year from now, I'll be qualified.

Which is all well and good, if it's what I want, but is it? I was sitting in class today, half-listening to the lecturer, and looking around at the other students, and I realised I had nothing at all in common with these other people. The huge creative burst I've been through recently, which has meant so much to me, would mean nothing to them. Yet it's central to who I am and the way I live my life. They don't know me. I feel like I'm having to hide a huge part of my personality in order to fit in, and without doubt, this is psychologically detrimental to me.

The above statement may sound pretentious, but all it means, is that I'm exceptionally good at something, yet in my ordinary life I'm neither able to make a living from this talent or be recognised for it. There's no one in the class I feel I can talk to about this. I feel so frustrated, I could explode. Bah!

On Monday I start my placement with the Community Drug and Alcohol Team, which I'm looking forward to, because I have friends working there and I think it's an interesting area to work.


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Nursing is hard on the soul. The stress levels can be immense. Things would be better if I had something in common with my classmates. Don't get me wrong, they're a lovely bunch of people and I get on well with them, but I don't have any real friends in the class. (That's enough moaning)

The above statement may sound pretentious, but all it means, is that I'm exceptionally good at something, yet in my ordinary life I'm neither able to make a living from this talent or be recognised for it.

Doesn't sound pretentious at all. I don't know what the solution is,apart from winning the lottery, but I've spent most of my life feeling like that, and so have any number of 'artistic' people. *Sigh* 'Snot fair, that's all.

I don't know that it's necessary to feel one of the peer group in order to benefit from what you're doing.

At some point I came to terms with the fact that I was entirely unlike the other people at teachers college, and I made my friends elsewhere. I certainly don't regret getting a teaching qualification though.

I think this is a universal problem, not that it makes it any easier to live with. At least you can satisfy your artistic temperament after work, and the money you earn enables you to buy the tools and materials you need. I would suggest you join some sort of local art club, but from my own experience thay tend to be peopled by very 'safe' artists, usually retired ones.

Get your website up and running. You may become famous yet!

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