Log in

No account? Create an account
Previous Entry Share Next Entry
diversion sign
An eleven page chapter from my upcoming book Psychiatric Tales, which will be out from Blank Slate in early 2010. Feel free to point out any errors or make any other comments.

1 schizophrenia

2 schizophrenia

3 schizophrenia 3

4 schizophenia

5 schizophrenia

6 schizophrenia

7 schizophrenia

8 schizophrenia

9 schizophrenia

schizophrenia 10

11 schizophrenia

  • 1

Re: As ANOTHER family member of someone with schizophrenia...

I am so sad and sorry reading about what you've been through! I just want to say thank you for sharing your experiences. I am holing up in my flat feeling depressed and guilty because I have left my boyfriend alone at his flat with his crazy thoughts and our dog. He calls me every half hour, sometimes to tell me he has joined the Freemasons, sometimes to accuse me of unpleasant sexual acts which are, quite frankly, beyond the scope of my imagination! He has been well are pretty sane for a few moneths, so I was really happily and probably foolishly planning our future and hoping to have children together, but now I am crashing back to reality. It is so hard because I love him and want to be there for him, but, as others have implied here, there is no point in being there for someone if it wears you down so much that you can no longer function. I find that however much I try to remember that he is not well and try to ignore his hurtful comments and anger and muttering and accusations, I just can't help feeling hurt and rejected and ending up in tears or arguing.
As for the violence issue - your mother's case is tragic and extreme, but I do think it likely that people suffering from schizophrenia are more prone to violence, simply because they feel threatened a lot of the time and so quite naturally react with violence to what they perceive as a threat. My boyfriend is a sweet, gentle person, but he occasionally smashed televisions and furniture, and has a few times shouted at his neighbours accusing them of stealing things, so it is understandable that they keep their children away from him, although he is very hurt by it and can't understand why.
Having said that, I have experienced similar emotional abuse and physical abuse from parents and people considered completely "sane," so I don't know if people with mental illnesses are any worse really. I feel much safer with my boyfriend than with my stepfather, who is not only sane but a respected professor!

  • 1